I've never experienced the tru love of a grandfather since I was a little child. The one who let me feel the love of grandfather is my dear uncle. He has five children and nine grandchildren, he truly loves them. He always willing to listen to me whenever I had a problem and he addressed me as one of his grandchildren. Sometimes I can't express my feelings toward someone in my family, but I can always share those feelings with him. Most people think a little boy knows nothing and didn't trust him like adults, but my uncle always listen to me when I tell him every story I have in my mind. It's true I don't know he trusted me or not, but I know he care so much because he was willing to listen to every story I shared.
Several years ago, uncle suffered from stroke. It made him cannot move his mouth, neck, hands, and legs. He can't talk, he can't doing his job, and he cannot doing his hobby. These condition made him less appetite and talk less. His condition became better and worse during the time. He have showed us some progress that I couldn't imagine. He could say a word more clearly by moving his mouth. He could move his neck to move his head toward the food which his daughter hold it next to him. I tried to chat with his wife about his condition and she didn't notice the progresses uncle showed to us.
At first, I think those progresses uncle showed are the clues that his condition will become better, better, and better. Something happened, I don't know exactly how uncle got to hospitalized once more. He should take the treatments to improve his health including haemodialysis and consume the medicine the doctor gave to him. One day, dad told me, "He cannot be helped anymore." Do you know how it feel? It's like your heart got an electric shock, it's truly hurt, I was shocked to hear those words. His condition became worse and worse until yesterday. When dad visited him at the hospital (in ICU room), he felt "paralyzed," he felt powerless and can barely move his legs and have no appetite all of sudden.
This morning, dad received a bad news, one of uncle's child told him "Dad have gone." He told it to mom and me. Off course it's hard to accept, It's hard to believe. "When God says he should be alive, he is alive. When God says he should be back to Him, he'll be back to Him," and there's always a meaning behind of the situation regardless it's pleasant condition or not. Sad is the first thing I experienced when we receive a bad news. But, when I think it over back when uncle suffered from stroke for the first time until now, how long he suffered from stroke? It's more than two years! It's over already for his suffering... This condition may be good for him to go back to God, because he doesn't have to suffer anymore. It's not anyone faults the reason he left, it feels better when I think from his point of view.
I'll
always remember the love you shared in our family and I'll never forget
your smile and your attitude when we have a problem, you always tried to
help us. I'm grateful for these beautiful memories you gave to us. I
can't feel my grandfathers' love since I was a little child, because
they already with God long time ago. You're the one who let me feel the
love of grandfather. Thank you very much for all the time you spent with
us until the last day of 2013.
